I Am A Freakish Weirdo

One of my many interesting conversations with myself while Nathan was getting coffee.

azurefiregodess: maybe i should write erotic literature for a living
azurefiregodess: that'd be an interesting thing to tell my guidance counsler
azurefiregodess: yes can you suggest any good colleges for erotic literature? wonder what she'd say
azurefiregodess: ok i'll stop now
azurefiregodess: so timmy what does your mom do for a living? she writes erotic literature
azurefiregodess: imagine that career day
azurefiregodess: ok i'll really stop now
azurefiregodess: so kids if you try hard and do well in school you too can have your stories published in penthouse forum
azurefiregodess: ok i'll really actually stop now

And then I really did stop.

//Megan

Ew Ew Fucking EW

Hmm OK so I read an article about all these underage girls who take photos of themselves (not naked mind you) and make old pervy men pay to see it. How fucking gross is that? There's even one with an 11 year old girl. Fucking gross! I don't care if their naked or not the photos are meant to excite you so you'll pay the stupid money. We all like money. But you don't have to start selling your body when your 11 years old. At least wait until your 18 to fuck up your life.

//Megan

Haiku

I love writing haikus for some reason. They rock.

Missing parts of heart
Assembly required for some
Not for kids under 10

Ahh yes I'm a dork. Well we already knew that.

//Megan

Shhhh

I really hate the kids I go to school with. There are a few exceptions but on the whole I want them all to burn in hell. I just can't understand how stupid some people can be. Yes let us waste our lives away with drugs so that we can die of an overdose before we turn 25. Or let us be sluts and flirt with every guy in school because I'm a fucking stupid whore who already has a boyfriend when other people who are so much more deserving don't. God I just can't stand it! The only thing that keeps me going is knowing that I'm 10x better then pretty much everyone there. I can only wait for the day when I can say goodbye to all of that and just say fuck it. Just give them the middle finger and tell them to shove it up their ass and move on.

Yeah that'll be a good day.

//Megan

My Dad Is Funny

So today I was sitting in the car with my Dad listening to him rant about Rush Limbaugh and his twisted black soul and blah blah blah when all of a sudden we get onto the topic of religion. And then he declares he's going to go on a spirtual journey to find himself this summer. This scares me. People who go on spirtual journeys tend to scare me. I just hope he doesn't end up going to Tibet and hanging out with Buddhist monks all summer. Actually I hope he does and takes me with him. That would rock. Go Buddhism!!

//Megan
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Look I changed how I sign my name! Spiffy!

I Hate People

Yeah that's all I really have to say. Enjoy my nugget of wisdom.

-- Megan

Gone....

Urghh

I just can't stand it here anymore. I feel like this country is slowly sucking my soul out. I'm getting the hell out of here if it's the last thing I do. I'm just going to end up going to college in Canada or Europe, I can't stay here any longer. I feel like if I do I'll be buried in a conservative landslide.

-- Megan

HAAAA!

I got a car! I got a car! Whoop whoop I got a car! Now all I need is a licence. Hmm yes that could turn out to be tricksey. But it doesn't matter. Know why? Cuz I got a car! I got a car!

-- Megan

P.S - I got a car! I got a car!

Gnarly

Bet you didn't know that was spelt with a g did ya? Anyways I just wanted to make a note of something.

Tattoo's I Want:

1. Calvin and Hobbes on the bottom of my back or the top
2. One of the My Little Ponies on the bottom of my back or the top
3. Carebear on my ankle
4. Snow White (not sure where yet)
5. Geisha (not sure where yet either)
6. Some type of Lord of the Rings thing

And don't go telling me that I'm going to regret it. I hate when people say that. By the time I actually get it done and I still want it then I'm not going to regret it.

-- Megan

Baby Boom

Well today Harriet brought her baby daughter to school today. I was sitting there holding the baby and she looked up at me and I realized something. The whole accumulation of my life is leading up to the day I have one of these of my own. Everything I do up until then will be insignificant compared to that moment. It's a scary thought but true. My mothering instincts went into super overdrive holding that baby. It's strange to be able to just know what to do with a child. Maybe that's why women are such an enigma to men.

-- Megan

PS- Yes I'm home.

Sucky Sucky 5 Dolla Me Love You Long Time

Where the hell is that from anyways? Well anyways yeah so I got kicked out of my parents house. I guess this is somebody's way of telling me that I should go on with my dream to be a traveling troubadore bringing music and poetry to all. Or maybe it's somebody's way of trying to get me to die. Not sure which. Probably the latter. And considering how I feel right now death would not be an unwelcomed thing. Soooo considering that I don't know where I'm going to be a few days from now don't expect any updates for a while.

And so ends childhood.

-- Megan

DDR

Yeah DDR rocks. And I suck at it so it's double the fun since you can play and watch me fall on my ass. And my brother's fat friend is playing on it and I'm afraid he's going to break the mat. I would have to kill him if that happens. Kill him dead. People are dumb. Hahaha yeah they are. Entertaining. Yeah well Conan O'Brian is going to Canada this week so I'm going to get no sleep staying up late to see if at least one person says eh? Yeah it'll be great if they do. So people in Canada please say eh? so I can be happy about my life. Yeah.

-- Megan

Mmm mmm mmm good


Random stuff I've made in case anyone cares. Doubt they do.

-- Megan

pOOH

You know what I noticed that's really fucking annoying. How the new trend of people is to bring their damn digital cameras around with them and take pictures of everything that happens in their life and then they publish the pictures online. That is so fucking annoying. No people we don't give a damn about your sad pathetic lives. So sad and pathetic that you have to carry your webcam around with you everywhere. Just no. Do not go to the store and take pictures of everything you think is cute and funny. For the love of humanity stop. STOP!!!!!!! WE DO NOT CARE!!!!!!! Thank you.

-- Megan

Another

Wow I was little bit scary the other day eh? Ah well that's how I usually am. No matter. It's snowing and not stoping and scaring me. If we don't have school tomarrow that would really be just great. Just great man, great. I really have nothing to say. I just feel like wasting time. Oh wait I do have one thing to say. Audio blog Nathan. Audio blog. Yeah and that's about it.

-- Megan

Must Kill All Humans

I hate men. Sometimes I want to take a knife and slit the throat of the next one that walks by. And then I'd laugh as the blood pooled around his dead and lifeless body. And then I'd cut his balls off and feed them to a dog. Ohh I think I'd rip his heart out and jump up and down on it until it was a bloody pulp. Oh then I would be happy. Then I could live out my days with that little secret filling me up with bloody happiness. Homicidal? Psychotic? Well I think anyone of the fairer species would be when it comes to men. We are after all smarter, prettier, and better at everything we do.

-- Megan

Oh God

OK nobody listen to that! Nobody! It's just not right. Sooo don't listen to it. OK glad we cleared that up.

-- Megan

OK now I know your all going to listen to it. Well burn in hell.

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Wotcher

Hm let's take a little time out today to firstly congratulate Megan on getting 100++++++++ on her History Mid-Term. I do believe that I should receive and award that says Megan received 100++++++++ on her History Mid-Term and therefore does not have to take this revoltingly easy and ridiculous class for the rest of the yeah that so could very easily teach with her eyes closed and her mouth stapled to her backside. Yes I do think that would look right smart hanging over my bed.

But let's get serious for a moment (although I was quite serious before). I do believe that every nominee running for the democratic party for president are a bunch of smarmy gits. The one that is the least revolting and someone I could stand for is Kucinich. Visit his web site here. Of course he hasn't got a shot in hell with those cheeky gits Kerry and Dean running the place. Anyone who A) supports the war B) disagrees with same sex marriages and C) thinks the death penalty is an effective way to stop crime do not deserve my vote. Yes my one measly vote that could (used rightly) hold the key to victory or defeat. To all you little Republicans and Dean Supporters you can kiss my ass for being a complete imbecile and lapping up everything the media feeds you. That also goes for anyone who still supports Michael Jackson. The lot of you can kiss my arse.

Well hopefully I've offended loads of people so my work here is done.

Until Next Time
-- Megan

PS- I'm going to 24 hours without a wink of sleep and seem to be more witty than usual. This could come in very handy at various points in my life. So HA to you, you sleep needing freaks. OK well not really since I'm going to be taking a nap now but I do feel certain pride at being able to obtain above average levels of sarcasm and wittiness without days of sleep.

Smudgery and Drudgery

Oh boy Megan's in a witty mood. Everyone watch out! Hmm I do like that title I made up though. Do I feel a story brewing? Wait...wait..........it's comming.............. maybe.........nope lost it. Oh well. One of Megan's many great works that will never be published. Let us bow our heads in silence.

-- Megan

Hrmmm

Everytime I sit here and try my damndest to come up with something super witty and intellectual to say. But it never comes. I don't think anyone can come up with anything witty or intellectual to say while staring at a computor screen. Plus that horrid pressure of impressing the 3 people who actually read this is too much.

Some things about the whole vegan/vegitarian thing:

A. It's my way of life so don't sit there arguring with me about it if it does not affect your life in any way or purpose.
B. The whole thing about killing animals that live in vegitation that the vegitarians would eat is pure bullshit in the fact that someone is just trying to justify their consumption of meat and not to have to feel guilty about it.
C. I think we can assume that if an animal cries when hurt that they feel pain. If they feel pain then wouldn't killing them constitute murder if they have the same emotions as humans. Can't a cow fear death?
D. I don't give a shit what you think. So stick that in your pipe and smoke it.

-- Megan

All that she wants............

Whooo didn't go to school today. Yay for sickness! You know what's really yummy? Cherry pop-tarts. Yeahhh. I'm so bored right now that I'm talking about random things. You know what else is yummy? Ace of Base. Well not in a food way but in a musically satisfying way. OK I think I scared enough people now so I'm going to go.

Huzzah!
-- Megan

Yes my bones and organs

...................................................(stabs self)

-- Megan

Girls Just Wanna Have Fun

Indeed we do. I have decided to compile a list of things that if any guy has or shows any of the traits below you MUST run away from him. Far away.

OK here it is the official RUN AWAY FROM THIS MAN NOW LIST by Me (Megan):

1. He talks about himself in the 3rd person
2. He weighs less than 100 pounds (excluding children under the age of 14)
3. His name is Patrick, Nick, Tim, or David (and sometimes Mike)
4. His nickname is anything with an animal or animal like habit EX: Bulldog or The Scratchinator
5. He does not find Family Guy or Futurama funny
6. He likes to pick out your clothes
7. He refers to himself as "God"
8. He mentions sex in every conversation you have
9. You watch Jeopardy together and he gets none of the questions right but still thinks he's smart
10. He threatens to burn down your house

And that is the list. This is all just from my personal experience so feel free to disagree with me. Or if you have anything to add put it in my guestbook or e-mail it to me.

-- Megan

Me and Ashley: Vegan Girls!

OK I officially decided to stop eating meat. Watch this video. It's disgusting but maybe it'll wake you up a bit.

-- Megan

School School is a Fool

I'm in school *gasp* and it's 7:44 am! Good god what kind of torture is this? I need sleep damnit sleep! Even if I did sleep all day yesterday and went to bed early. I need more! So did anyone besides me catch South Park last night? Yeah good stuff in that one good stuff. Yeah I'm just talking to no one arn't I? Oh well. Sign my guestbook darnit! It's all empty and sad :( Nathan you better at least sign it becuase I know you read this. OK that is all.

-- Megan

Boo

I'm cold. I'm tired. And I'm in a horrible mood. I think this calls for some hot cocoa and cuddling with my stuff animals in bed. If anyone wishes to talk to me today (Friday) then call me or something.

-- Megan

Cry Cry

Don't you just hate love movies? Don't you just want to take a gun and shoot the TV? Or mayhaps take someones heart and rip it out if their chest and eat it? I know I do.

-- Megan

The Song That Makes Me Cry

"Konstantine"

I can't imagine all the people that you know
And the places that you go
When the lights are turned down low
And I don't understand
All the things you've seen
But I'm slipping in between
You and your big... dreams
it's always you and my big dreams

And you tell me
That it's over
But i can't stand here in a patch of four leaf clover
And your restless
And I'm naked
You've got to get out
You can't stand to see me shaking
no, would you let me go

and you don't want to be here in the future
So you say
the present's just a pleasant
Interruption to the past
And you don't want to look much closer
'Cause you're afraid to find out all the hope
That you had sent into the sky by now had... crashed
and it did because of me

And then you bring me home
Afraid to find out that you're alone, no
And I'm sleeping in your living room
But we don't have much room
To live

And I had dreams that i would learn to play guitar
Maybe cross the country
Become a rockstar
And there was hope in me
That I could take you there
But dammit you're so young
But I don't think I care
and if I hurt you then i'm sorry
It's just this guilt has got the best of me

And then you bring me home
'Cause we both know what its like to be alone, no
And I'm dreaming in your living room
But we don't have much room
To live

Konstantine came walking down the stairs
Doesn't she look good
Standing in her underwear?
And i've been thinking, and i've thinking, no
But she's been drinking
And it doesn't get me anywhere

My Konstantine came walking down the stairs
And all that I could do
Was touch her long blond hair
And i was thinking, what i was thining ya know
we've been drinking and it doesn't get me anywhere

This is because I can spell konfusion with a K
It's hard to like it
It's to dying in anothers arms
and why i had to try it
It's to jimmy eat world
and those nights in my car
But this time i'm alone, and i don't see those stars
I'm not your star?
Isn't that what you said
what you thought this song meant
you thought this song meant

And if this is what it takes
just to lie in my mistakes
and live with what I did to you
And all the things i put you through
I always catch the clock it's 11:11
And now you want to talk
it's not hard to dream
You'll always be my Konstantine

They'll never hurt you like I do
No, They'll never hurt you like I do
No, No, No, No, No, No, No, No, No

This is to a girl who got into my head
with all these pretty things she did
Hey Baby, You know that you keep me up in bed
It's to a girl who got into my head
with all the fucked up things I did
Hey Maybe Baby, You could keep me up in bed
My Konstantine

Spin Around me like a Dream
We played out on this movie screen
And i said, did you know I missed you
Did you know I missed you
Did you know I missed you
Did you know I missed you
Did You know i miss you
Did you know i miss you
Did you know i miss you

God, I miss you

And then you bring me home
And we'll go to sleep but this time not alone, no no,
And you'll kiss me in your living room, oh
And you see, no, that i've been missing in my Living room
Cause this is what i miss, what i miss
We don't have much room
I said, does anyboy need that room?
Because we all need a little more room
To live

My Konstantine

*Something Corporate*

I'm nobodys Konstantine and that's sad.

-- Megan

Ick

Everything sucks. Life sucks, you suck, I suck. We all suck. Let's all take this time to come to grips with that. Thank you.

-- Megan

New Big SUPER COOL Changes

Whooo all new layout! Notice I took out the tag-board and all that pink. Ahhh so much better. I was getting sick of that. But now it's all so much better. And if you don't like it feel free to kiss my ass.

-- Megan

YaY!

I got a spiffy spifftastic avatar! It won't show up here but I want to thank the lovely ladies at Weepie for making it.

-- Megan

Nathan Rocks My Socks

Ohhhhh look everybody Nathan got a bloggy too! OK everyone go check it out it's over ---> there in the links section. Go now! And Nathan should update it often so he doesn't disappoint his devoted fans like I know I do. Wait I don't have any. Oh well. So is life.

-- Megan

Blah

Ok so I went a little tensy bit crazy this weekend. For anyone I might have mentally scarred I apologize. That's all I have to say for now maybe I'll write more later.

-- Megan

Interesting

OK I don't really have anything to say I just thought I would update this for *someone* who probably doesn't deserve it. But whatever I'm being nice. I just wanted to say life sucks. And since that's what I always say I doubt it matters to anyone. But whatever.

-- Megan

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Hmmm good to know. Now everyone can see how crazy I am!

-- Megan

Men

Why do I even like guys? All they do is let you down and rip out your heart. I should be a lesbian. No wait I should just be a nothing. Not liking or having feelings for anything. But you know you gotta have that goddamn animal instinct that makes you want to reproduce so you have to go out and search for a partner. Damn you animal instinct. And damn men. Damn them to hell. I don't think there are any good ones left. So why bother shifting through the refuge? My perfect man does not exist and even if he did I'm sure he wouldn't like me. But so is our lot in life.

-- Megan

"Arbolist...Look up the word. I don't know, maybe I made it up. Anyway, it's an arbo-tree-ist, someone who knows about trees."
Crawford, TX 8/21/01

A real life quote from Bush. Enjoy it kiddies.

-- Megan

Note to Self

Cheer up emo kid!

-- Megan

..........

Why, as I ask time and time again, do I even bother? You think life is going just right for once and then something happens and rips your heart out. Life takes it and throws it on the ground taking pleasure in the streams of red that fly up and spray it in the face. It only licks it's greedy lips and clamours for more. But I should I give it to it? Should I keep going through this eternity of my life and feed this beast his blood whenever he asks for it? Should I force new blood onto him allowing him to take the blood of my womb? Sometimes I think not. But then simple human nature takes over not allowing you to slice that vein sitting there so perfectly purple and blue full of rushing life. The really brave ones are the ones that can cut through that and rejoice at the redness of it knowing that life will get none of it.

-- Megan

GRRRRRRRR

I'm so pissed right now. I'm so pissed I can't even type without mashing the keys down REALLY REALLY hard. All I want to say is that people shouldn't be hypocrites. That's all I'm saying. Yup. That's all.

Megan

WoW

I'm updating this twice in a day? Twice? Good god I have even less to do then I pretend to actually do. This is just sad. This is damn sad. But anywaysssss on to my ramblings. Hmm is it weird to be jealous of people who know someone that you don't know cuz you think you found your weirdo soulmate. An interesting question. Let's all put on our ponder faces. Oh good god this is funny. And no it's not family guy Ashley cuz I know that's what your thinking right now. And no I'm not going to tell you what I'm talking about. It's my little secret so HAAAAAAA! Hmmmm I want to keep typing so it seems like I have something to say and so it keeps me busy but I'm running out of ideas. Blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah. Ok that should do it.

Megan

Mayhaps

You know these damn newbies at school annoy the hell out of me. Their like freshman. They don't know the damn hierarchy so they don't know their damn place. And God do we have some whores here this year. It disgusts me. Makes me wish I had a pair of rubber gloves, a face mask, and a big ass can of lysol. Ick. Gives me the creeps. The teachers really need to step up with the whole cracking down on whoreish behavior thing. This is school. Not a brothel. Anyways I wonder who even reads this damn thing. Probably no one. Well if you read this sign my damn tagboard so I know who in the hell you are. Or I will hunt you down. I"LL HUNT YOU DOWN DAMNIT. OK I'll stop. Just needed to release some pent-up frustration.

Power to the people,
Megan

Indeed

Ok I just wanted everyone to know that I'm os bored right now I'm going through all my favorite web pages and deleting all the dead links. I'm so bored in fact I'm actually updating this. I know don't keel over in shock. I should really write in here more but hey I try to pretend I'm too busy when in reality I'm too lazy. Don't you just want to kill your exs? And put their heads on stakes outside as a warning to all future partners not to be asses. I think we would all be a lot better off if we did that. Gets the anger out. Kind like kickball. Hey! We could play kickball with their heads. OK I'll stop with my sick fantasies. Now I just have to find something to do this weekend.

Megan

*Pukes*

Ack it's the dreaded school again!!! Somebody help me!!! Aghhhh so boring. Oh well. I have to do it. Just 2 years Megan. Just 2 more years.

Megan

Ain't that cute? I love teh whole gothic lolita thing. Must learn to make clothes!!!!! Yeah right I'm too lazy. Anyways I know where she came from but I'm too lazy to look up the link. I'll post it later. But anyways school starts again tomarrow so I must go and arm myself.

Megan

YAYYYYY

Yay Kyle is home I'm so happy! Well looks like the rest of the summer is looking up. Plus I don't have to work anymore. Yay for laziness!

Megan

Hmmmm

You know people always turn out to be diffrent than from what you expect to be. You think you have such a connection with them and that their so great and are so diffrent from anyone else you know. But their not. Their just like everyone else. And you can't stand it. And then they turn around and forget about you and it feels like a knife has plunged into your heart. And slowly but surely their pulling it out. With your heart still attached to the end of the blade. But who cares? Whats the point right? Their just like every other friend you have. They need to grow up. But can they? Sometimes I don't think so. Jelousy rears its ugly head. But you know what? Fuck jelous. Excpecially when you don't have a point to be jelous. But you know what? I'm sure you don't care right? Well fuck that. And fuck everyone.

Megan

HYYYAHHHH

Ok I'll stop with the quizes. Maybe. Ok Ok so I like them! Is that so bad? Stop looking at me that way! Yeah well your wierd too. SO HAAAAAAAA!

Megan

Glamour Goth


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Hell yeah!!!!!

-Perfect- You're the perfect girlfriend. Which
means you're rare or that you cheated :P You're
the kind of chick that can hang out with your
boyfriend's friends and be silly. You don't
care about presents or about going to fancy
placed. Hell, just hang out. You're just happy
being around your boyfriend.


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Sweet!!!!! Totally.

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Ok then

You know I hate people. I really do. Sometimes I wonder why I don't just go and lock myself in my room and avoid human contact at all costs. I realize now that the only person I can relie on is Kyle. And he's in boot camp. Just freaking lovely. If I end up decapitating myself don't blame me. Blame yourself.

Megan

LaLa

Well I haven't updated much have I? Damn work for making me so tired. Ahh well thats life. I've been so depressed lately and I just don't know why. Maybe its from missing Kyle so much. I just don't know anymore. Well whatever. Anywhooos congrats out to Ashley for snaging Totoro aka Kudos aka KJ. Yeah you know she's got it going on. Don't deny it. And I apologize in advance to anyone i might horribly maim over the next week. Sorry its pms. And with that note I'm off to fall into the dark abyss known as sleeping as some of us actually have jobs unlike their slacker friends (haha kidding).

Megan aka Simmy Snappler

Wahhhhhhhh

My life is sucking right now. I miss my boyfriend. My job sucks. And I have to go back to school in another month or so. Ahhhhhhhhhhh! *Pulls hair out of head* Oh and to top it all of I think I'm dying of heat exhustion. Lurvly. At least I got to go on vacation. Yay Disney World! Well actually Yay Epcot! But anywhoos I think i'll go and be bored some more.

Megan

YAY no more school!!!!!!!!

So no more school yippy yippy yay yay! No more studying and getting called Meggie by Luanne. *shudders* The horror! God but its freaking hot out. Damn you, damn the humidity, and damn the Wright brothers. Unless your obbsesive over Family Guy like me or your part of the Emo-Corish Posse you won't get that. So HAAAAAA on you! Alright I think the heats going to my head. I'm off to soak in the nice cold tub.

Megan

Awards de la Terribles

Award ceremony. Do I expect to get one? No. Do I want one? No. Will I tell them to take the award and shove it up their ass if I get one? Yes. I decided to take pictures today of various things that highlight how shitty this whole thing is. I decided to make it all into a collage. I won't mention what I'm going to do to it but lets just say I don't think my teachers will appreciate it.

I found out Kyle is going to be gone for 10 weeks instead of 6 :( Ahh well the shitty stuff always happens to me. Thats not new.

I look forward only to the day I can kiss this school good-bye. Approx: 1 day and 4 finals left.
Megan

Woooooooo Movies!

Yay actually going out tonight. Gunna go see that Finding Nemo movie. I have an obsession with Pixar movies and I'm not afraid to admit that. Altough somthing seems to be wrong with Kyle :( Kyle if you see this e-mail me and let me know whats going on. I'm worried about you. I'm over Ashleys now hanging with the Emo-Corish Posse so yay go us! Caleb actually came over with us so the whole posse is here. Wooooo! Only 3 more days till the big 1-7. Excited about that. But besides all that nothing else is going on and I have to take a piss so yeah peace out peoples!!!!!!

Megan

HAHA

Hey peoples check out my kick ass new layout. Yess I'm so proud!!!!!! Go Megan. Notice most of my links and friends spaces are empty. Want to fill one? E-mail me.

K gotta work tomarrow so gotta hit the hay.

Megan

Blah

Sorry for not updating but I've just been so tired mentally and physically. I'm planing on re-doing this whole blog and making a website for me and Asherz. So since I plan on spending my time online learning how to do that I might not be updating for awhile until I figure it all out and get myself a new layout. Soooooooo if you want to be kind and help me out e-mail me.

Megan
indiekiss@sbcglobal.net
aim: azurefiregodess

Hmmmm

"If we were meant to play with our pee we would be pissing out action figures." -- Me

Jeez I'm like Kyle now quoting myself. Oh and school is absolute hell. I cannot stand people. I seriously think I should just bomb it. Or amybe I'll get Kyle and his anarchist crew to do it for me. Haha.

Megan

This for Kyle who I love more than anything in this whole world. Yeah you probably already know the words and all but still. It's a song that reminds me of us cuz remember: its "Staircase to Heaven" not "Stairway". Thanks for talking to me even though I sounded like a dumbass. It's one of the many reasons why I love you.

Stairway To Heaven

There's a lady who's sure all that glitters is gold
And she's buying a stairway to heaven.
When she gets there she knows, if the stores are all closed
With a word she can get what she came for.
Ooh, ooh, and she's buying a stairway to heaven.

There's a sign on the wall but she wants to be sure
'Cause you know sometimes words have two meanings.
In a tree by the brook, there's a songbird who sings,
Sometimes all of our thoughts are misgiven.
Ooh, it makes me wonder,
Ooh, it makes me wonder.

There's a feeling I get when I look to the west,
And my spirit is crying for leaving.
In my thoughts I have seen rings of smoke through the trees,
And the voices of those who standing looking.
Ooh, it makes me wonder,
Ooh, it really makes me wonder.

And it's whispered that soon if we all call the tune
Then the piper will lead us to reason.
And a new day will dawn for those who stand long
And the forests will echo with laughter.

If there's a bustle in your hedgerow, don't be alarmed now,
It's just a spring clean for the May queen.
Yes, there are two paths you can go by, but in the long run
There's still time to change the road you're on.
And it makes me wonder.

Your head is humming and it won't go, in case you don't know,
The piper's calling you to join him,
Dear lady, can you hear the wind blow, and did you know
Your stairway lies on the whispering wind.

And as we wind on down the road
Our shadows taller than our soul.
There walks a lady we all know
Who shines white light and wants to show
How everything still turns to gold.
And if you listen very hard
The tune will come to you at last.
When all are one and one is all
To be a rock and not to roll.

And she's buying a stairway to heaven

Californication

Psychic spies from China
Try to steal your mind’s elation
Little girls from Sweden
Dream of silver screen quotations
And if you want these kind of dreams
It’s Californication

It’s the edge of the world
And all of western civilization
The sun may rise in the East
At least it settles in the final location
It’s understood that Hollywood
sells Californication

Pay your surgeon very well
To break the spell of aging
Celebrity skin is this your chin
Or is that war your waging

Chorus:
First born unicorn
Hard core soft porn
Dream of Californication
Dream of Californication

Marry me girl be my fairy to the world
Be my very own constellation
A teenage bride with a baby inside
Getting high on information
And buy me a star on the boulevard
It’s Californication

Space may be the final frontier
But it’s made in a Hollywood basement
Cobain can you hear the spheres
Singing songs off station to station
And Alderon’s not far away
It’s Californication

Born and raised by those who praise
Control of population everybody’s been there
and
I don’t mean on vacation

Chorus

Destruction leads to a very rough road
But it also breeds creation
And earthquakes are to a girl’s guitar
They’re just another good vibration
And tidal waves couldn’t save the world
From Californication

Pay your surgeon very well
To break the spell of aging
Sicker than the rest
There is no test
But this is what you’re craving

Chorus

For some reason I have become obssesed with the Red Hot Chilli Peppers lately. Expecally this song. I guess it's because it reminds me of my mother so much. I've always thought of myself as a California girl not a New England one. This song just puts the whole California thing perfectly. So if I start quoting RHCP just pretend like its cool and I'll be happy.

Megan

Why School Sucks the Devils Ass

Listen to Lithium by Nirvana.

Not that my opinions matter or anything.

God I get treated like such fucking shit in school. My only friend is Ashley and all my teachers despise me. I use to think it was such a great place but now I realize what bullshit it is. I hate the people I go to school with. Preppy ass drug addicted hypocrites. I hope they all die of a drug overdose. I feel like total shit and both Ashley and my brother are sick but when I ask to go home it turns into this big deal and I can't because I'm the evil one just trying to con my way out of classes. It's gym for christ sakes. God I fucking hate it here. I feel like slitting my wrists the minute I walk into the door just to get away from it all. I realize now that me and people just don't mix and school is not the place for me. I don't know how I'm suppose to smile at people for 8 hours straight this weekend each day. Well at least I'm gettin paid to do it. FUCK THIS SCHOOL! My teacher comes over and reads what I write and then has a shit fit. Fucking freedom of expression man. Nobody asked you to come over and read this. "Well Megan I'll alow it for today but you can't do it in the future." Just because I critize the fucking school. Fuck this shit man I'm about to walk out like I did the other day. I have enough problems I do not need this crap too.

Megan

Commitment

I know I'm at the bottom of your to do list
Out of an A, B, and C
In order of impotance
I'm a E

This is so me

"She's Anti"

Sitting in her class
Sophisticated, anti-social brat
She never speaks a word
That's why she's sitting in the back
No one knows her name
I never knew that she existed

Then one tragic day She came to school and went ballistic
With an ak in her right hand
She shot the cheerleading squad and ran
They're all dead, They're all dead

She's alone in her class
There's no one left for her to blast
She's always kicking ass
Masochistic, Gothic, dressed in black
No knows her name
I never knew she was sadistic

On April 28th She came to school and went ballistic
With a rifle in her left hand
She blew away the football team and ran
They're all dead, They're all dead

She's a bitch, she hates everyone
She's one of those Anti-girls
Pessimistic and cynical
She's a victim of this lonely world, yeah

I know she hates me
She's a little insane
And she's crazy
She's kookie, ookie, dookie
They're all dead, They're all dead,

----HomeGrown

Right......

Life is hell and I have art. Which makes it more than hell. Is that possible?

CODY IS A DIRTY WHORE!!!!!!!!!!!!

Penny Kicker, Simmy Snappler, and Forky Stumpler = the anti-whore gang. Although Forky Stumpler is really getting on my nerves and needs a beat down.

Megan

Love is a dirty word.

Parents go "Oh well don't worry someday you'll find your true love."

Know what I'm gunna tell my kids? "Run child. Run far far away."

Megan

Wtf?

Okay I understand when people get mad and don't want to talk about things. I do it too. That doesn't mean you should be an asshole to the person who cares about you the most. The person that loves you more than anything. If you don't talk about your problems it eats away at you and you'll never feel better. I should know. I just feel like shit now. Apparently people don't even care what I have to say or about my problems. Apparently I mean nothing. Maybe Tim was right. I should just blow my head off and everybody would be so much better off.

Megan

Thinking

My guitar teacher threw a paper ball across the room and she managed to get it into the wastepaper basket. She asked if anyone had seen it but we all said no. So she says "Everytime I don't make it people are watching but everytime I do no one is. It's the story of my life." I don't think truer words have been spoken.

Megan

School Sucks Munkey Balls

Back to school, back to school. School is so boring. I swear I don't even learn anything I don't know anyways. Strange how I dislike it yet I want to be a teacher. OOOOhhhhh hold on gotta get my lunch. My Dad gives me pudding without a spoon. My parents confudle my mind sometimes. CapriSun yum yum. Hahah that rhymes. God I have art next. I swear my art teacher has some wierd unknown vendetta against me. He fails me for christ sakes. I mean sure I threw a tin foil ball and hit him in the face but still. I DO WORK DAMNIT. He fails me and then wonders why I don't do any work. I mean I do work and I still fail. Seems pointless to me. My sandwhich smells bad. Wonder why. Oh well I'm hungary.

Megan

GRRRRRRRR

Fights suck.

Lots of fun this weekend. Hit the punk scene with Ashley and went to an Allister concert. Not that bad. Although the circulation got cut off from my hand in the middle of it and totally freaked me out. Luckily I sat down and it came back. The human body is intriging. We even saw them on the way home and stalked there van until we got to our exit. Man if I was driving we would have just followed them all the way to wherever they were going, Haha fun. If any hot punk guys see this and want to date my illustrious friend Ashley please e-mail me. Or actually any guy who isn't a man whore. Just e-mail me.

Megan
urbloodyromance@aol.com

Complete Shit

Why do I always get so over emotional about things. I would say its because I have my period but I'm always like this. Sometimes I just sit in my room and cry because I can't take it anymore. Other times I just feel like killing someone. My emotions always get the better of me. It's a problem. I'm much too sensitive for my own good. I wish I could be some kind of emotional rock but it'll never happen. Damn me and my sensitivity. I'm not cut out to be a social person. I should just hide away in my house and never leave having absolutly no contact with the outside world. I probably wouldn't even be able to do it. Ok now I'm feeling a little too depressed even for me.

Kyle Quote of Cuteness:
"Thank God I'm an Atheist"

Megan

;(

Where oh where has my Kyle boy gone? Oh where oh where can he be? Right now I wish he was snuggling right next to me.

Megan

Yeah I have like a mental breakdown and you sign off. Gee thanks. Just fucking thanks.

Sadness

I'm doing a collage project for art and it's really depressing me. I'm doing it on starvation and poverty in Africa. You see all these little kids just wasting away and then you turn around and look at all the fat asses we have in America. We are the most obess country in the world and maybe it's because everyone else is starving. Why don't you fucking get off your ass and donate the money you would spend on junk food to help out people in other countries. You'll lose weight and help someone too. It really pisses me off. I plan on sponsering a child when I get older. You know I have a good plan. Maybe I'll put it into action for my senior project. NOBODY ELSE STEAL IT. Not that anyone reads this thing anyways. Oy vay.

Megan

PS- I miss you Kyle and I love you!

Assholes

Men are such assholes. Sometimes I think I should be a lesbian just so I don't have to subject myself to them. ARGHHHHHHHHH!!!!! Like I was seeing this kid for a while who was all into the band Homegrown. Now that I know Ashley and all I've come to like there music too. But I also found out that this song he was telling me about when we broke things off goes like "Your hot but I love you not" If I ever see that kid again I'll pummel him. Asshole!
I have Kyle all and now but still God. It hurts to think about the assholes I use to actually like. Thank god that I met the right guy who isn't one. For the most part anyways. Listing to Nirvana depresses me but puts me in a good mood for some reason. Life is wierd so maybe that isn't actually wierd. Ah well.

Megan

Strife

Agh life is so complicated sometimes. What do you do when you want to see the guy you love with every fiber of your being but you can't? All I want to do right now is be in his arms but I can't. I just want to cry. Why doesn't he want to come see me? I would be there right now if I could but I can't. Love sucks sometimes.

Megan

"Regrets are worthless"
-Midtown-
Thats all I *ashley* have to say. Hi Megan! *waves*

Sleeping over Ashley's house. If anyone wants me i"ll be there. We shall be depressed about our boy toys together.

Freaking out

Okay what do you do when your boyfreind dosen't call you and then he says this thing about making mistakes and then you call but hes not there and everytime the phone rings and its not him you feel like you got stabbed in the heart?

Well I don't knwo what you would do but I'm going to go cry histerically :(

Wahhhhhhhhh
Megan

Call

I tried to call you but no one answered :(

Ashley says HI!!!! as she falls over in her chair and says WHEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Megan

Guy PMS

Why is he so depressed lately? It makes me worried. I feel like he can't talk to me. I want to help him but it seems like he won't let me. Is he breaking apart from me? It makes me so sad. Please just tell me what is bothering you. I love you and won't ever judge you or leave you. Remember that.

Some people like Ms. Whore Nikki suck ass. I really jsut want to rip her throat out. No wait she probably has std's in her skin. Ewwww she makes me want to puke. WHORE!!!!!!!!!

That is all
Megan

I LOVE HIM SOOOO MUCH

That is all.

Megan

PooP

Lalalaala. do you know what poop means? People Order Our Patty's --- Spongebob. Best show ever created. Ever. I think I'll completely change my apperence and become a wierd silently depressed goth chick. Or a loud party hardy punk gurl. Or maybe Kyle's metal head rocker chica. I think I like the last one best ;) I miss him so much somtimes I feel like I just can't go on. But I know that eventually we'll be together.

"I don't like the drugs but the drugs like me" -- Marilyn Manson

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Megan

Kyle--- UPDATE YOUR BLOG!!!!!!! I love you ;)

A translation at last!

I'm writing in in one big block and not in verse since that is how it is writen in the book.

Ah! Like the golden leaves in the wind, long years numberless as the wings of trees! The long years have passed like swift draughts of the sweet mead in lofty halls beyond the West, beneath the blue vaults of Varda wherein the stars tremble in the song of her voice, holy and queenly. Who now shall refill the cup for me? For now the Kindler, Varda, the Queen of the Stars, from Mount Everwhite has uplifted her hands like clouds, and all paths are drowned deep in shadow; and out of a gray country darkness lies on the foaming waves between us, and mist covers the jewels of Calacirya for ever. Now lost, lost to those from the East is Valimar! Farewell! Maybe thou shalt find Valimar. Maybe even thou shalt find it. Farewell!

Shexy

Ugh men!!!!!!!!!!!!! We should throw all them in a hole and nuke it! Along with certain bitches (lizzie maguire look-a-like whore and purta rican mexican whatever piece o shit named bianca). Men are not worth the tears ladies. I say freeze the sperm and kill the rest. Except maybe Kyle. We shall see.

Megan

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Life

Life is um hmmm.......

It's well..... It's...........

Ummmmm...............

Ah! Life is hell.

Think I nailed that one.

Whoop de do. Were at war. How much does anyone want to bet that it lasts about a week. Just like the last one. Bush is a clone of his father. I suppose that isn't a suprise. Nore is it that he won only becasue the screw up in Florida and who happens to be the governor there? Hmm maybe his brother? I hate war and find it to be an act of prehistoric brutality. You would think that we would be smart enough to get past these petty diffrences but we are not smart enough to escape power and greed. The human race is nothing more than evoloved monkeys yet I would rather be a monkey with no cares than to have to face another day with Bush as the president. Other countries fear and hate us now. I should just move to France. At least my children would be raised in a counrty that does not have wars and that understands the stupidity of them. I don't want them to have to grow up worrying about the things that I now worry about. Me and Kyle shall sail away carried away by our love for one another. Never to return to this god forsaken country.

Megan

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Angelic cute? I don't think so.

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